All about Me!

Ah, Its Saturday again! How I love it! The morning sun, the police cars, the 24 hours grocery store, the exceeding overpriced gas and Jazz. Deep, Soulful and slowly wake my senses that I have a deadline on hand and someone just walked in and ask for a beer! Oh well, its almost brunch.
Yes, Brunch is another thing I enjoy thoroughly. Its been awhile since I had the chance to brunch.

Last night, I was kinda overwhelmed. Peter is still working on the chimney and its bigger than I expected. I have to call and make some changes on my plans and my sign will further be delayed because of the chimney. We have to re-do the design and now my plan of getting a garage door is kaput. The roaster is in the way of the window I wanted changed. I can only do a sliding window.

With so much going on, I sometimes regress into my negative mode of thinking and slowly feeling I am sinking. I went for a Frisbee game with Michael and dinner at Fresen. Just to get my head away for a little while. It was good to be in the sun, exercising and working on my throw. The park is such a sexy place, especially this time of the year. Everyone wants to get some sun on their palsy white skin and I get some eye candy on those topless, well muscled specimen. Very nice! Indeed.

Toronto does have a city full of Beautifuls. We seem to inherit all the artistic, tattooed, bohemian preppy type. The men and women are way too cool for their own good. This is my city. Sin City.

With armload of flowers and eyeful of the Beautifuls, I popped into Maya before heading home. Just to wind down my day. I was tempted to go Distillery with the girls and let my hair down.
But I am tired. Exhausted. I knew it when I can hardly picked myself up from Maya's couch and headed to my car.

I needed some alone time to have a perspective of what is happening. When I wrap so many things into such short time and will them to happen and it doesn't, I panicked. Patience is such a hard virtue on me, its like telling a dog not to jump into a puddle of water. Try telling a kid not to stick his/her hand into the cookie jar! Its hard.

So, what "All about me" is this? I don't know. And that is exactly how I feel. But, I know I need to slow down and do what I can and let the others go. Everything will come together. I cannot hurry. I need to pace myself. Time is the best teacher. Things will sort itself out. Or through time, I might be able to see things differently. I need to take the the time listen to my heart and listen to nature.

I so look forward to my drive to the country this evening. I look forward to the quietness, to seeing P and take some pictures of the country and hopefully, smell the roses. I hope to catch up on self.

Oh, how I love Saturday! The clear blue sky, the vibrant city, people in transition and we are quite becoming the place for people to call it their hub.